My hb said that it’s impossible for us to travel overseas with our two young kids. So we have decided to have our holiday in Singapore – Downtown East.

On our first day, we swim at the baby pool in the evening around 4 pm. The weather is very good but the water is terrible! It’s so salty! Can guess the urine concentration level is very high.

Anyway my 2 kids enjoyed swimming, especially my girl. We have to persuade her many times before she comes out from the pool. As for my boy, he only likes to sit on the float. Can’t blame him as this is his first time in the pool.

We spend our second day at Wild Wild Wet. It is quite fun and they have many different types of games there. However, as my 2 kids are small, they only play at the kids’ pool. My girl only played the slide twice and my boy only once. It’s so scary. I’m a timid mum.

We spent our last day at the ball playground after we have checked out. After which we have our lunch and headed home.

It has been a relaxing holiday for us and we plan to have another one in December @ Sentosa.

It reminds me of my days as an auditor. It was my first job and has been the most fulfilling and enjoyable one. I still recall the happy times every now and then. How I miss those days…

Now after graduating from university for 8 years, I have not upgrade myself at all. I did not read up any amendments (which are a lot) to the accounting standards. I did not attend any of the professional talks.

My knowledge seems to have stop at 8 years ago. Will any employer wants to hire me if I ever want to change job? Now I can understand why most employer wants to hire fresh graduates.

All I need to do is to hang the laundry and prepare the bag as we are going out later. I need only 15 minutes at most to do this. But because he keeps pestering me, I cannot do my things and got so angry.

And when my daughter vomited last night and dirtied herself and the bed, I scolded her.

Why can’t I keep my cool? I got so easily irritated since yesterday afternoon.

It didn’t get better even after I wake up. My boy wakes up early and follows me to the toilet. I showed him my frustration.

Before I left for work, I gave him a kiss. I hope he is not hurt.

Same for my daughter. Before she goes to her school, I give her a hug and kiss.

I really hope to be a good mother and pray that I will not lose my temper easily. I am blessed with these two healthy loving kids and I hope to treasure them as much as I can.

It has been one of her favourite questions for many many months. But nowadays, it is getting from “bad to worse”.

“What day is today?”. After answering her, she will ask again 5 minutes later.

Now, I question her back when she asked me. “What do you think?” or “You know the answer.”

And Friday is her favourite day as she knows that weekend is coming. She does not need to go to school and can play with her cousins.

She behaves exactly like the “working people”. Looking forward to every weekends.

My grandmother has suffered from many illnesses. She has been taking medicines for years.

Last year, she has a bad fall and was bedridden for months. With a help of a walking stick, she is able to walk.

Now, as her kidney is not functioning, her body is swollen. She is bedridden again.

Things are not on the bright side. I can sense it when my sis told me that my eldest aunt has rushed from Hong Kong last Saturday.

Is sad when someone we love has to leave us.

Is sadder when someone we love has to suffer so much before leaving us.

Last Friday was my last lesson (Actually this coming Friday is the last lesson but I have decided not to go. Wanted to save my leave for better use).

Yoga is really a good form of exercise. But I guess it’s rather hard for me if I want to continue. I’m the person whose mind always drift away in wonderland.

Though I may be physically doing all the stretches, my mind can think about what to do after lesson, where should I go, the things happened yesterday…..

It’s hard to train the mind.

But still, I like the stretching. It’s fun. Some are easy and I’m happy and fulfilling when I can do it. Some are challenging and with a little bit more effort, I can do it too. And of course, some are impossible.

Hope that I can do yoga again when time permits. In the meantime, I shall miss it.

We went to NUH to visit her and the baby. He resembles the father.

As for my sister, she looks OK. But I guess she needs more time to recuperate as she has Caesarian.

When I carried the little boy, it reminds me of my two kids. Time has flies and they have grown up so quickly.

It’s so much joy to have a baby, though it comes with some sacrifices.

To get out of this “toxic” atmosphere, I have chosen to run away.

I went back to my mum’s house on Saturday and stayed the night over with my two kids.

How nice it was to be back at my mum’s house! Like a defeated warrior, I’m back to hope to get some healing.

But I didn’t pour out my sorrows to my mum. It didn’t want her to worry…

But happy times are short. And I have to face reality. I’m back home again but the “toxic” seems to remain and I wonder when it is going to go away. Or will it ever go away?

Once relationship is broken, it can’t be mended anymore.

And I just hope that this crack will not get deeper and deeper…

My hb is the first one to wish me Happy Birthday. But I was too sleepy and I ignored him.

Then I have messages from my friends on my hand-phone and msn sending their wishes to me.

Happy that so many people still remember my birthday.

Birthday is the day that we celebrate our birth.

And after having my own kids, I began to be grateful for my mum who has taken the hardship of giving birth to me and taking care of me till now.

As the saying goes “You are always a kid in your mum’s eyes”

Thank You mum!

Surprisingly, she didn’t cry or grumble. Maybe she also feel bored at home.

However, when I heard from the teacher that one more kid from her class has caught the HFMD, I regretted bringing her to school.

I can only pray now that she is strong enough.